Miserable me....

im in mess.......soo damn mess up.....im in dilemma...dilemma over things tat involved other ppl...when it comes to sacrifice..letting go...aarrrghhh...dun noe how to put tat in a very nice words....
am i a jerk when i do stop sumone 4rm achives a goal 4 theirself..?but then..i do not intended to do tat....im trapped whether to let go or not....u get me...dun ya...?
im not supposed to do tat aitee....?let things be the way she wants...get better job..better pay...
but im just scared tat she wont hv time 4 me later on...keep on doing tat..doing tis...she'll neglect me soon....will she do tat...?
aargghhhhh......will she hate me 4 tat...?4 stopping her doing things tat she likes...God....im so selfish....!!
u do understand me rite...?
by keeping thing to urself..sooner or later when it burst out.....u noe wat will happen....talking n revealing e;thing dat been kept all tis while.....how does it sounds....?u noe laaa aiteee.........wat impact will it brings...?
lay back n think....+...-...%...x..+..= HURTSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.....damn hurtssss ppl......

rain rain go away, come again another day...

i dun xactly means rain as in rain...wat am i referring is like...

sumtimes we dun always hv a good time...no matter who r we with....ther always ups n down...although we cant really prevent it 4rm happen..but ther's always a good solution to it....
one side must noe how to b d peacemaker so dat it wouldnt drag d problems..
but 4rm tat...argument does happen...4rm tat...e;ting will be revealed n the pain is there...!!!!!!

sumtimes just cant take it cos its too painful although its an honest n sincere confession....wat la kn....?

ghetto superstar.....

Life is full of excitement....but sumtimes can be fuckin' lame...noe or not...??!!dat happens when u got nuthin to do...n ther it goess....!!!BBBORRIINGG SIIOOTTTTT.....!!!
How to make it happening when d situation is like dat.....
sabar..sabar..sabar..sabar.sabarrrrrrrr.................
waitt ahhh.....wait aahhhh..waitt aahhhhh............................
keep up d good work.....d good thing will come n u just hv to b patient while keep on waitin.....kn saaayyaannngggg.............eeeeemmmuaaaaaaaa......

be nice...to b or not to b...

U r so nice...or...well...so nice of u...does praise like dat make u happy...?sumtimes la kn...juz wanna b nice to u....ppl be nice to u..so tk it as a compliment la..
but xtra careful when u wanna b nice to ppl...they will tk it for granted...beware ppl!!!
orrr....mayb they hv sumtin beside it...u wouldnt noe riteeee....
n one more thing is..do u sumtimes feel like wanna b given a new life to breath...?
wat i mean is like living a new life n forget the past....past is when u learn sumtin serving as a lesson or warning ..doesnt matter good or bad...
when can u get it is totally a question mark..cos u never noe wat u gonna get..wait ahh...wait ahhh..wait ahhhh...waitin also can keep u sick n tired ppl...!!!
well..always work hard to make sure u gonna get wat u want aitee ppl....

keep on chillin' n put sum effort to ur success....daaaaaaaaaaaaa...........!

U...love..

sumone..

• love is u being able to touch d sky eventhough u r afraid of height


• to see u is to love u..n to love forever


• my love as deep; d more i giv to thee,d more i giv, for both r infinite


• drink to me wit ur eyes alone; n if u will, take d cup to ur lips n filled it wit kisses n giv it to me


• love is like magic, n it will always be


• to d world u may b 1 person, but to one person u may b d world


• love reminds u dat nuthin else matters


• love wasn't put in d heart to stay, 'till u giv it away


• d way to love u is to realize dat u might b gone

watgoesaroundcomesaround...

believe in dat phrase..?wat u giv,u'll get back...watever good or bad dat u did,u'll get sumtin 4fm it..no matter in wat shape..in wat situation..wat will it look like...etc..etc..etc...
tis is s thing dat ppl always said n sum of 'em hv gone through it...but look 'ere k fellas..in terms of gettin back d reciprocation on wat u done...when we r tryin to do sum good stuff,ppl will simply misreading on wat r we tryin to do...how will we act then...?its hard to satisfied ppl around u...sumtimes u juz hv 2 forget bout ur own feeling jus 2 make ppl around u smile n happy..dat's is so unfair ritee...but do we hv other choice..?yess..we do but it will take time on how to act..complicated plus damn difficult pal...!!!!
tell me how can ppl see ur kindness..??through deed or intention..??y izit so hard for ppl 2 understand...???w-h-y..?
sumtimes it can make u felt f**k**g bored to handle all tis...ther's so many do's n dont's...
ppl..come on...dun make things complicated...wa can always change sumtin bad to turn it into good thing...selfish r always ther......dat is y it seems so hard..
dealin wit dis kind of ppl makes will make u sick n restless yet uncomfortable..
pleasee n pleasee...do not act dia way cos WATGOESAROUNDCOMESAROUND..!

THINK N ACT WISELY..DUN JUS THINK 4 UR SELF......

rely on....

a shoulder to cry on...?cum a place to rely on....meaning u r depends on sum1 to make u feel good n relief over sumtin hard...how should i put dat...?eeeemmmm......
like tis...its how u act towards it at d 1st place...then only u need sum1 dat u called fren,buddy,family members,or mayb loves one....
but mostly will turn to buddy,siblings or loves one....mostly laaaaa...trust me...im in d correct path..
beware on who u choose to b ur listener...its simple xtually....choose..tell n..ther u gooo...!!!
no matter how big d thing is...its like ur burden is gone....not all of it but at least ther's sumtin than nuthin riteee....?
well...life is not always good n happy...things bad might happen..but think wisely n u can get over it aiteeeee..........think positive n act mature....

laid back n relaxx.........enjoy wat u hv while u hv dat chance..!!

take a break....a whileeeeeee.........

work..work..work......take a break 4 a while...if not u'll get hypertension n bumped into illness...hehehhe.....
will continue sooner......waitttttttt aaaaaaahhhhhhh.....................!!!daaaa..........
kiss.....kisss.............

Sunshine through my window...lightning sumtimes appeared..

No more sunshine for me cos....................................its turnin night already...thaaa.....haaa...haaaaa........................!
Life is full of sunshine as in bright...dark cum rain as in gloomy n lightning as in...emmmm...quarel....get me...?
leave it aside n carry on wit wat u hv.....if u r strong enuff la....like me..i used to get carried away n it became misery n miserable....wisely thinkin' i shouldnt b in dat situation...but ppl sumtimes juz dun get it u c....its Tough n sumtime it'll make me become emotional wher by i simply get touched by simple n tiny winnie lil' stuff...
More worst when i can b f**k**g PARANOID by things dat i felt insecured over thing dat already past n thing dat doesnt even exist@happen...i juz feel it by my desire n instinct...six sense...??No laa....i dun think so....but dat f**k**g PARANIOD always keep on haunting me n noe wattt....pity la my sumone....sumone always hv to face it n sumtimes we fough juz b-cos of dat stupidossss feeling of mine.........HEELLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.....................!!!(sumone..pleaasssseee dun leave me k.....i promise dat ill change..but giv me time k sayang)
Sounds ridiculous..............but it happened to me laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......................am i psycho?isssssssssssssss..............touch wood (selisih malaikat 44, mntk simpangkn jauh2)!!!!!!

Lets go home n hv a cup of tea wit cookies..............!!

Get A liFe.....

Huhhh....?tell me wats d best thing dat happened to u guys tis recently in life..?lame..or full of xcitement..?ppl easily say colour ur lifeee.....but how to do it..?by using colour pencil..?water colour..?magic colour...?crayon...?......
Dun get me wrong k...true..there's a solution on how to make ur life full of joy...by doing sumtin dat u love wit full of desire....or by gettin full of support by sumone dat always thre all d time..or ur closest fren...

As 4 me....although my sumone's far....U R AWAYS NEAR N DEAR TO MY HEART.....

But sumtimes u juz cant continue by living alone...me...?yup..im alone n juz dat sumtimes being surrounding by come-n-go fren....not to say i dun hv close fren..i do....but things change suddenly..but no worries cuz we r still remaining frens..
Besides....sumtimes im like living in ma own world..dats wat ofc colleague told me...SOO WAATT....!!lets put it tis way aiteee....im still talking to 'em,lepak-ing...i didnt wipe 'em out of my lifee....understand sumtimes ppl dun feel like hanging out..dats wat mostly i felt...cant help it..sorry!!!juz wanna go home straight n sit tight....hehehhhehe...........................try it..its fun....
Dun care wat ppl say..b-cos u hv d right to do wat u want..but dun la ignore 'em......fren r fren n personal r personal...dun blend it cos it will drive u mad.....

Happy Working......!!!

Miserable me...

MISERABLE...dusshh...dusshhh.....!!!
Y..?b-cos or of ur situation n environment dat already gone mad n clumsy...hate tis...akward laa..ppl around me...aaarrgghhhhh...!!!!!drive me dizzy...plus myself dat cant control d situation sumtimes...isssshhhhh...how to get over it???penat la.....
SALLY....!!!INHALE.....EXHALE..........HAAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH..........
cool...dun let emotional control urself k partner....(pandai cakap,tp diri sendiri...hhhhmmmmmm...)
PEACE.....
Wake up.........sleeping beauty!!!!move it...move it...

feel me, feeling?

Sumbody told me dat i am so secretive...i love to kept things alone...not really..but sumtime ther's a thing dat u need to kept n share it wit sumone dat u really believe n trust....might b d one dat u loved or cherish live wit...huh...?
Fren....buddies...?eeemm....not to say dat all of 'em cant b trusted...but sumhow...not-so -good feelings r always ther.....but i hv to learn trusting ppl b-coz sumtimes u juz cant proceed keeping thing inside for a very long time..it might hurt u more u n u'll end up suffer...juz dat u hv to noe who should u talk to n can dat person kept dat to theirself.....criticism is a NO-NO....unless it'll relief u.....but..how's dat..?
Sounds complicated..but no choice than to juz go through it....believe it or not...u cant live alone in dis wide world...u need to b acompany sumtimes..be alone r killing..no 1 to talk to..no 1 to laugh wit..no 1 to make a joke wit...no 1 to share joy or sadness....ppl..!!!its killing ok....so DONT...!unless u choose ur life to b dat lame..!!!wake up ppl...dun fake urself juz to proved dat ur strong enuff but d truth is.....U R NOTTT...its killing to nway....
Faking or Fake...?heard of it b4...?hv ever felt it b4...?me...?fake..?well...think so...but not all d times...to make u ppl more understand..its like lying to urself...y u fake urself..?mostly when u tryin to defend sumtin dat cant reveal no matter how hard u try....noe how it felt...?TIRING N EXHAUSTED...plus it'll make u b-come soooo nottt U! errrggghhhhh...........get rid of it ok...its really not gonna help u in watever condition ur in...trust me...!

Hopeless

Due to the day that already half-gone.....me was juz never stop thinking to get a better life..which already been discovered by certain ppl...maybe the time was not rite or the place was not suitable for me to get all dat...who noes dat mayb i'll get it sooner or later..sumtimes my inner cried n i failed to heal it myself....

Or.....ther's a mistake dat i make n it bring me to tis situation dat i myself never dreamt to b in sumhow....but thre's always a chance to improve n to change fate by working harder n pay sum attention to other things dat mingle around me...u noe wat im sayin' huh....???grab a chance n moovee onnn partner...!!!

But i was lucky xtually cuz someone's always ther 4 me.....during my sad n happy...sumtimes sumone felt giving up..i noe..but sumone still try to b there acompany me whenever situation im in....will sumone remain there...?

To live is to struggle...according to my beloved father...it's true nway....dig it..!

Introduction me..

Aaaarrgghhhhh..its been sooo complicated to share my day...tough..dizzy....not too much for this first timer writing...hv to warming up a'lil bit..then i shall proceed with 1001 updating bout me n my recent life for the year 2007...